Shauna Wears Pink

I will never forget the day my doctor uttered those horrifying words “I am sorry to tell you, but that is a cancer tumor that you have in your left breast”. I was 33 years old, and my life changed forever. I invite you to read my story, learn from it and hopefully be inspired to reach out to other young women living with and beyond breast cancer.

Monday, September 18, 2006

The “Blow-Up Doll” phase of my treatment

I am currently in what I refer to as the “blow-up doll” phase of my treatment. Every Monday morning I truck over to my plastic surgeon’s office for an expansion of my breast implants. The process takes less than 5 minutes, but is one of the most surreal things I have ever experienced. First my doctor uses a stud-finder, yes you read that correctly…a stud-finder, to locate the metal ports embedded under my chest muscle within my expandable breast implants. He then sticks a big needle into the port which I cannot feel at all since I no longer have nerve endings in my chest. Using the needle in the port he adds saline to the implant. At the first of our “blow-up doll” sessions he literally doubled the size of my breasts as my husband and I watched in amazement. He warned me that it would feel much like I had over-stretched a hamstring. He was correct in that I did indeed feel stretched, so stretched that I had a hard time breathing for a few minutes. I immediately reached for the ibuprofen in my bag, and after it kicked in I could breath almost normally. This week, with my sister looking on, my doctor again repeated the process…but this time with a little less saline. I watched in amazement as my boobs expanded even more. What a testament to modern medicine! Now only 5 short weeks after a double mastectomy, I have boobs even bigger than before my surgery. Granted they still look a little like a science project, but not bad for 5 weeks out of surgery. I still have two more of these “blow-up doll” sessions. Then I must maintain my over inflated status for 3 months in order to form a proper capsule under my chest muscle for my “real” implants. In January I will go back into surgery to have the expandable implants replaced with permanent silicon implants (which will be smaller and more natural looking), and then I will have a final surgery several months later to reconstruct my nipples. Anyway, in the words of my good friend Dan, “here’s to modern medicine and to blow up dolls”.


  • At 12:23 AM, Blogger sharon said…

    Hi Shauna,
    My name is Sharon, and I have experienced all the feelings you are going through. I just finished having my nipple reconstruction surgery on the 7th of September. I am still having some problems, but i too see the light at the end of the tunnel. I am not a lawyer, but i coach cheerleading. That was my saving grace also. I had a reason to get up in the mornings or afternoons and get dressed with make up ( so wouldn't scare the girls,lol). I coach at the middle school level so my squad went through everything with me. The last surgery has been the worst for me. With my mastsectomy I was at cheerleading camp five days later. With the expander surgery I went back to practice within 3 days. I had to have a hysterectomy also and never missed more than 2 weeks. The implant surgery was a breeze, but after a month i have only been able to make 1 game and no practices yet. My doctor just alwayed me to do this after I confessed to feeling depressed and useless. So stay busy and you will feel better. I will keep you in my prayers and thoughts. Good Luck!



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